I spent the last 7 months in a relationship that I thought was THE ONE. I thought he taught me to love again after the abuse. I thought this man would never hurt me.
I thought wrong. I'm the type of person that gives 100% to everything and usually receives nothing back. I was fooled to believe he was treating me the way I deserve. The entire time he was texting and snapchatting his exes, completely omitting my existence.
My soul was crushed. I had finally felt love again and i was devastated again. He says he loves me and wants to start over and actually treat me the way he should have been the entire time. But do I trust that? His honesty record isn't looking good. Im conflicted. My brain says RUN. My heart says let him try.
I either feel everything or im numb to all emotions. And after being hurt like this, im becoming numb. It's part of how i processed the abuse. And im doing it again. Im afraid if he means it, i will already be done.
Pray for my understanding! Thy will be done!
